I am tired. Tired of feeling like a failure. And of feeling down all time and of the daily monotony. Depression can be a real dampener some days.
Today is Friday and I should be happy, excited, for the coming weekend; however, this week has been a rough one. My day job the past several weeks has been a challenge to my mental stability. And I am sure the approaching holiday season is adding to my despair. Though I absolutely love the fall and winter seasons (mostly due to the cooler temperatures), I loathe the feelings and thoughts which come along with the holidays. Feelings of loss and emptiness. Feelings of sadness.
The little stick figure pretty much sums up the way I feel today. Mentally tired.
Those who know me know that my passion is to make people happy so I am sorry for being such a downer today. After becoming more vocal last year about my condition, I have received a huge outpouring of support from my friends and family. The heartfelt words of encouragement have truly been a blessing to me. So I am sorry to be such a downer today. Moreover, I ask please for your continued prayer over the next several weeks as the holidays approach.
A bit of good news which really brightened my day last Sunday. Someone, who I do not know, purchased five canvas prints from my Etsy store. Four 8×10’s and one 11×14. Needless to say, I was speechless. I am not selling my drawings to make money. My hope is that my meager talent will make someone happy.
I will leave you with this Psalm. This is my hope.
I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to me and heard my cry for help. He brought me up from a desolate pit, out of the muddy clay, and set my feet on a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord. - Psalm 4:2-3
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