When you hear someone say, “I am tired”, this does not necessarily mean that they are physically tired. Yes, of course, the person could be tired after a long day doing physical labor. However, saying “I am tired” could also mean that person is mentally tired.
My depression, on top of my anxiety, can at times be quite a debilitating experience. There are even some days where I can barely muster enough mental strength to get out of bed. And then have to stumble into my home office where I spend upwards of ten hours of my day deep in my own thoughts. I am not going to sit here and lie and say I have never thought about just ending it all. So when you hear someone say, “I am tired”, please do not just brush them off. Instead, give it some thought and look for any signs and signals of distress or acts of separation. From my personal experience with this mental disease, here are just four ways you can tell when someone is broken.
- The person struggles with sleep or their eating patterns change.
- The person separates themselves from others, especially in large group settings.
- The person is hiding behind a smile. This is probably the most challenging one to detect. I should know as I have become very adept at hiding my depression. Even after becoming more vocal about my condition in this blog and in public form, I can still hide behind a fake smile.
- The person is forcing themself to be busy; trying to find ways to forget their pain.
This week’s drawing was inspired by my will to go on; it was inspired by the love I have for my bride. I love her more than life itself and would literally do anything to protect and care for her. Let’s take a look at Paul’s letter to Ephesus where he describes eloquently this form of love.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave Himself for her to make her holy, cleansing her with the washing of water by the word. He did this to present the church to Himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or anything like that, but holy and blameless. -Ephesians 5:25-27
Paul’s choice of the Greek word for ‘love’ was purposely chosen. The English word love, used here in Ephesians 5:25, is not the Greek word eros as the causal reader may believe. The Greek word Eros is where we get erotic or sensual love — which is vividly described in the book Song of Solomon. Eros is form of loved shared by a married man and a woman. No, the word love is in this passage is the agape form of the Greek word for love, or the unconditional love which was shown by Christ when He gave everything for his bride, Church (the Saints, Us, the sanctified).
So today I carry on for God’s work because I know He is not finished with me. I carry on for my bride as our story is not finished.
Thank you for sharing your heart, Jackie. Praying for you & the work you do. It doesn’t go unnoticed. You are a blessing to so many, in so many ways. As my daddy always said “Keep on keepin’ on”. Love you & Tammy!!
Thank you Lorah.